I love you…
and I don't quite know how to say it.
The words that come to my mind... to my heart,
I'm not sure if you'll accept.
Is my heart one jump ahead of certainty?
or it is the purification of the gloom turned bliss in my life….
you make me feel incredible,
even in your physical absence
(which frequents more than I like)
my pessimistic qualities are always disproved,
to turn my life into a brighter shade of tomorrow.
I put myself out to the world,
and even in my own mind
I am beautiful.
for you
for me
for the past, the present, the future
of who we were, who we are, who we will be
the us is too marvelous for a two-letter word.
Even in my youthful stupidity
when I so foolishly threw away the diamond in front of me,
only to find the rest were just pebbles.
I searched and dug through my life, through my heart.
My heart told me where to find myself,
it knew all too well what I needed.
And when I followed my heart,
it led me here;
standing in front of the man I love,
putting myself out for the heartbreak of my life,
risking the biggest loss a human being can comprehend,
the loss of faith, of hope.
And here I am today,
laying in your strong arms,
the smile on my face and my mind whispering,
telling me….
this is your ecstasy, this is the place you've been searching for.
All the years of exploring my life and what I need.
To discover it right back to my home grounds,
to find the happiness I needed
in you.